Wednesday 01 September 2010 at 01:58 am
So, during the recent celebration of my birth and the stark fact that I have begun my journey into my thirties. Someone asked i think jokingly “So what are you going to-do now that your no longer a kid.” I laughed it off, here i thought i stopped being a kid years and years ago… At the very latest at least when my own son was born, but it seems nope.
But the question seemed to stick in my head, I’m not exactly sure why. But i don’t really have that many things going on in my life, and in all honesty I’m actually pretty happy with it. I don’t work as much as “Normal” people do, but that's through choice because i don’t have any interest in working that amount. I’m classed as “Lazy” which i feel is unfair over, sure I’m not your most active person (understatement) but if i have something to-do. I do it. Just the whole concept of “Normal” working outs irks me, i have no interest in it. Give me some room and let me provide for my own family myself, Don’t expect me to sit somewhere for 8 to 12 hours a day, 5 or 6 days a week. It doesn’t work for me, i can’t live like that. Throw in living and dealing with a child with a disability, and neighbours who can spend 4 or 5 days a week fighting from 10pm right through to 5am, then ask that person to try and work a normal job. See how long it takes for them to snap
Either way, I’m happy with my life and once we move house. Which we will be very very soon, I’m sure it will only get better
These were all initial thoughts of mines to the original question, and yes i internally answered it with the above. But really it doesn’t come over as an answer, it comes over as a bunch of excuses. Why am i making excuses? So the stark and honest answer to this is:
“I’m going to continue my life the way i have been, I’m going to finish my degree’s and then I’ll probably continue on exactly as i am. Why? Because i enjoy it, I’d be a liar if i said that i wouldn’t like a bit more work or to be working on some sort of lasting legacy. But the work will come when it comes, and i already have my legacy”
If they’d asked what i wanted to do in the next 10 years, I’d have been an easier answer
- Finish Degree/Degree’s
- Move out of Central Belt
- Start providing family with our own food/energy
- Actually finish this blog design
- Get married finally
Just some basic things I will have done, maybe kick about the idea of having more children
Hopefully this gives an insight into me from this view, but if its not been glaringly obvious. Money or wealth holds absolutely no interest to me. Just about every one of my happiest memories in life happened when i was living below or on the poverty line.
and to finish it even though the post is after my birthday, “Happy birthday sis”